She’d started keeping a “pleasure audit.” Column A: activity. Column B: minutes spent. Column C: guilt index (1-10). Sex with Kenji: 12 minutes, guilt 8. Answering Mrs. Park at 1 AM: 4 minutes, guilt 2. Watching herself in the mirror before shower, just looking: 0 minutes, guilt 10.
Maybe that was the point.
This is the balance nobody writes about. Not work-life. Not work-life-sex. But work-life-sex-balance-as-in-constant-falling-off-a-unicycle. ” TigerMoms.24.05.08.Tokyo.Lynn.Work-Life-Sex.Bal...
“Mika’s mother just texted: ‘Lynn-san, Eiken Grade 1 results came. 98%. Why not 100%?’ I typed back: ‘Focus on the 2% gap is correct. I will assign error-type drills by 5 AM.’ Then I muted her. Poured a whiskey. Not the good Yamazaki—the emergency bottle behind the kanji flashcards. She’d started keeping a “pleasure audit