As the plane lifts off, I press my forehead against the cold window. The city lights blur into a constellation—a string of gold and diamond against the black sea. You look so small from up here. So impossibly small. And yet, you contain worlds.
Tonight, I stand at Changi. It is raining outside—that sudden, violent tropical rain that turns the streets into rivers for fifteen minutes before vanishing like it never existed. I watch the planes take off. Somewhere, a family is reuniting. Somewhere, a student is leaving for university. Somewhere, a worker is flying home to see a newborn child. farewell my singapore
Farewell, my Singapore. Farewell to the shophouses of Joo Chiat, painted in pastel blues and yellows like a Wes Anderson film. Farewell to the Singlish I finally learned to speak— "Can, can," "Alamak," "Don't shy-shy" —words that will sound foreign on my tongue back home. Farewell to the perpetual summer, where Christmas comes with palm trees and air-conditioning. As the plane lifts off, I press my
And me? I am leaving a piece of my soul in the red soil of this little red dot. So impossibly small
But my Singapore is not just the skyline of Marina Bay or the perpetual construction cranes that promise tomorrow’s future. My Singapore is the kopi-o uncle who remembers my order after three years. Siew dai (less sweet). He never asks my name. He just nods when he sees my face. My Singapore is the elderly Indian auntie feeding pigeons in the void deck of a Toa Payoh flat, even though it is technically illegal. My Singapore is the smell of durian mingling with jasmine at the wet market, the sound of Chinese opera drifting from a community center, the taste of laksa that burns my tongue in the best possible way.
I learned to walk slowly here. In the beginning, I walked fast—like a foreigner, always chasing time. But Singapore taught me the art of the leisurely stroll through the Botanic Gardens at dusk, when the monitor lizards slip into the water and the fruit bats hang upside down like forgotten umbrellas. It taught me that in a nation famous for speed, the most important things move slowly: the growth of an orchid, the patience of a hawker perfecting the same bowl of noodles for forty years, the way a friendship forms over shared teh tarik in a coffee shop.
I am not leaving because I am unhappy. I am leaving because visas expire, because lives are itineraries, because love for a country does not always grant you the right to stay.