She was trained to be a mirror—reflecting what others needed to see.
Ballet class at four, knees corrected, chin lifted. “Tuck your pelvis. Smile like you mean it.” Piano recitals where the applause was for how she looked in the velvet dress, not the missed B-flat. Modeling workshops in high school: Walk like you’re giving a gift. Don’t take up space—glide through it. Every etiquette lesson, every “just try to be prettier, quieter, more helpful.” Empowered feminist trained to be an object - mi...
She read de Beauvoir by flashlight under the covers. She marched with signs that said My Body, My Choice . She could name every fallacy in a patriarchy-apologist’s argument before he finished his second sentence. She was trained to be a mirror—reflecting what
Some nights she caught herself in the window’s reflection—perfectly angled, waiting for an appraisal that hadn’t yet arrived—and felt a surge of rage so clean it could fuel a city. Other nights, the rage collapsed into a smaller, uglier question: What if the training worked? What if I’m most powerful when I’m most object-like? Smile like you mean it
She remembered a line from a forgotten zine: “The master’s tools will never dismantle the master’s house.” But what if the master’s tools are the only ones she was given? What if she’s a hammer that learned to see itself as a nail?